“Through the Force, things you will see. Reaches across time and space it does. Other places. The future… the past. Old friends long gone.”

“Old friends long gone.”  Hmmm.
For the (almost literally) two or three people that have ever read this blog, you of course know why it (along with YFS itself) has been conspicuously silent for some time now.  A few months ago, the other half of this two-man endeavor, (and one of my best friends ever) Gregg, died of cancer.
It has impacted upon me in ways I still cannot describe, and even as I write this, I realize that I’m doing an absolutely terrible job articulating what it has meant to me.
I’m not here to relate any grand stories, or spew words of any sort of insightful or profound nature.  Truthfully, I’m not even sure what I want to say.
“O judgement, thou art fled to brutish beasts,
And men have lost their reason! –Bear with me;
My heart is in the coffin there with Caesar,
And I must pause till it come back to me.”
I can tell you this: Not a day goes by that I don’t think of Gregg for some reason, whether it’s laughing at a particular memory, or wishing he was around to lend an opinion about something, or even to simply mourn.  I know that last part might sound somewhat (melo)dramatic, but I’ve come to realize that I’m still doing exactly that– mourning.  I guess I just can’t help it.  Just like I couldn’t help it when I completely teared up while watching the new Star Trek movie.  Just like I couldn’t help finding it extremely difficult to work in my garage for the past couple of days, staring at all of our shop equipment that has gone unused for months now, most of it falling prey to the bad cliché of doing nothing but collecting dust
I just can’t help it.  I miss my friend.
I don’t know if this is weird or maybe even morbid, but I have a small note written by Gregg not more than a month or so before he passed away.  It was meant to be his first entry here on the blog.  I gave him so much shit because he never posted anything!  Every time we’d talk, I’d ask him if he wrote anything for the blog yet.  It became a requisite part of our conversations.  And when he finally did write something, I gave him even more shit because it was so short.  And what’s worse, I never posted it!  It’s not because I didn’t want to– it was just one of those things that I never did.
So now, it finally makes its way to our blog.  Reading it now is even more upsetting.  But for better or worse, here it is:
 
Hello For The First Time?
OK! OK! I know I haven’t said hello yet ,but I’ve been busy. You know with Christmas, New Year, having cancer. Wait, wait. What? Yeah, that’s right– the big C. It’s OK… I’m doing great; it’s just a little slow going sometimes. Cristar and I joke about it a lot, so if you see an unusual blog [entry] by him don’t worry– I get the joke.
Anyway, I just wanted to say hello and let you know there is another sabersmith in this company.
Yannus Nosevi
 
I’m not sure what I mean to accomplish by posting this now, but I just felt like it was something I had to do.  Does that make any sense?  Absolutely none.  But that’s okay.  I often don’t make any sense.
So there it is.  I unfortunately have no brilliant and engaging way to end this entry, so I’ll just cut my losses and end it here.  But I will ask this of you: Let’s never forget our friend Gregg.
 
~Cristar
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